candy's world

最近..
“她”常常在她的面前提起他
想知道他过得好吗?
知道他换了新的工作环境..
想了解他的近况

其实她也不是很清楚..
也并不是很了解他的近况
只知道..
“她”应该还是很关心他
毕竟..
他们曾交往过..

她在想..
他..
还喜欢“她”吗?
还会想念“她”吗?

要是..
“她”还爱着他的话..
那..
他..
会考虑重新和“她”发展吗?

当初..
她并不知道他为什么会喜欢“她”..
也不了解在交往后的几个月内为什么会分手
他不肯说..
她也不想再追问

她..
自问这一生已经不可能和他再有什么发展的可能
因为..
她不能辜负另一个他
虽然心痛..
但..
她还是希望他能找到能带给他幸福的“她”

let's share this..

每个女生心里都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友,
你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。
也许为了自己的前程，他没有要你等他。

也许你们相遇太早，
还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，
你们身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟，
对方已不再等待。

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，
而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时，
你会尽你所能的帮他，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，
你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，
但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这么一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心他，
总好过你们在一起而有一天会分手。

你宁愿做他的朋友，
彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，
你还是知道，
他永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，
当他那个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？

有些人，有些事，既然发生了。
就注定是你一生的回忆···

i saw this post on Joseph's FB..
really meaningful..
i didn't copy the whole post into my blog..
find it too long..

do you have a special someone?
i do..

all of a sudden i just miss the doggy so much..
met it when i went to a friend's house..
just when i stepped out from the car..
it came and running around..
and i just could stand there stunning..
because i was a bit scared..
not knowing the doggy would bite or not..
but then i think it wouldn't..
coz it was so cute..

it sat next to me at the sofa..
lying its body towards me..
i just touching it..
playing with its fur..
felt like it was my own doll except it was warm and it could move..
don't know why felt like the doggy is so special..
just like if i want, i could talk to it..
and it could understand..
like it was my own son..

today i start to miss it already..

today's mood is.. how to say?
not happy nor sad..
just so so..

and my mind is quite peaceful now, not like that day..
thought of so many things..
thought of him..

he still influences me a lot..
now i only knew..
it's been a long time didn't think of him..
because i don't have his news too..
he didn't call or sms..
or even chat in msn..
i don't know why..
does he hate me? or doesn't want to talk to me?
that's why i didn't add him in my FB..
call or sms..
or even chat in msn..
thinking of that reason made me stop myself from getting closer with him..

what a pity..

Just a missed call could make me think of so many things..
All the memories started to recall and flash back in my head..

We are not in the same path anymore, he's leading me ahead, and i couldn't catch up anymore..
So far away..
Even if i run, i don't think i can trace him..

Somehow i still blaming for myself..
How could i just let him slip away like that?
Why didn't i take the chance and hold his hand just for awhile?
Just awhile..
At least i wouldn't feel so regret until now..
But the thing is, he'll never know..
Never..