candy's world

Dear Taylor,

i miss him again..
a lot, a lot..
until there are times that i imagine..
what if one day he's about getting married?
am i going to attend his wedding?
no, i can't..
when i imagine that..
my tears fall down without my permission..
heartache..
i can't help myself from being loving him..
i still don't know..
should i use "love" this word?
to describe the feelings that i have for him?
i dare not use this word..
too much burden..
responsibility..
i used to say "i love you" to someone..
but end up, i just don't feel like i love him anymore..
that's not good..
that's why i don't use "love" word anymore..
until i know what is "love"..

with love,
candy